Through the Eyes...

Every time I sit in a meet discussing about the welfare of women or take part in rallies against discrimination or debate in television about the growing strength of womanhood a vaguely recognizable figure haunts my mind. The image takes the shape of a puny lady covered in a dim sari with nothing but her solemn face being revealed to the world. I try to read the image looking deep into her eyes but every effort to understand it takes me farther away from it, pushes me into the dread of being a woman and immediately to a level of defiance to etch in history the strength of my gender.

Despite being the only woman working among a group of men, I have consciously tried to be a free thinker, my example for a woman of the modern world. I have numerous men carrying out my assignments but not one of them have stirred this image as much as a male colleague of my cadre. Whenever a male colleague of mine puts forth a question, “Mam, Can you do it?” I blurt out, “Much better than you could!” without a second thought. Sometimes, sipping over a cup of coffee I do realize that I am being too harsh on men; but a moment later, I don’t care.

I was not born with this image neither did a catastrophe provide my mind delusional. It is unclear as to when it started haunting me and not until ten years back did I realize what could have happened to root this image into my memory. I owe it to the initial glimpses of this society which would shape me into being what I would be.

It was one of those foggy nights during the sixth year of my life and this is where my mind takes me to the farthest of my childhood memories. The sun had set very early bringing the cool breeze to the verandah where I sat memorizing my English poems. My mother had completed the household-chores just a couple of hours before and sat beside me reading the weekly magazine. My father came home only after I slept and it was usually days before I caught a glimpse of his face.

“Amma!” Hari was standing at a few feet of distance from us. Hari, a puny boy about twice my age frequented us, usually to run errands between our house and my grandma’s similar to what my mom did between our’s and my father’s.

“Did you deliver the sweets, Hari?” she asked. He walked towards her and told something in his native slang.

“No. Why?” asked my mom. Fighting over English I found difficulty in deciphering his dialect.

“Who told you?” asked my mother and “Sir!” came the reply. Hari referred to my uncle as ‘Sir’.

A few more inaudible seconds of conversation and then those words which made me realize that my English test tomorrow was heading for a toss - “We’ll be there immediately!”

We walked across the streets deserted from the fact that heavy showers were being expected during the nights. It was one of the good old days when people’s belief in the climatic news had been strong. We reached the house and saw my uncle standing outside. The dim light focused on him from the street and I could see his annoyed look. When we reached him, he strode into the house without a word. My mom followed him. I followed my mom.

“What happened?” she enquired with concerned eyes.

“Ma’s missing”, he replied and it took me a couple of seconds to realize that my Grandmother was not home. Grandpa had never been home.

“Did you check the neighborhood?” she asked.

“Nobody’s got a faint idea.”

“Did you ask the woman who delivers the flowers every evening?”

“She was the one who came in the evening and inquired about Ma. That was when I realized that she was not at home. She never leaves the house, except to visit the nearby temple.”

“But she would never have gone alone. There must be someone with whom she left.”

“But who?” he was shaking his head in frustration.

“That shouldn’t be too difficult to find; she never had that many friends!”

This hit me hard. Much more than my missing Grandma, more than the ghostly night, more than the increasing anger at my uncle’s face. No friends? What would I do if I grew up and could never get to see Priya, Sherry, Geetu, Dina and all the others? That sheer thought blew me numb. All of a sudden, I did not care about the test tomorrow. All I wanted to do was sit in the classroom amidst my friends holding their hands tightly. But the fear just increased. No friends? No friends!

“Where am I going to find her? I do not know where that old lady is now

“She might have gone to another temple”

“Does she expect me to come searching for her in the hundreds of temples in the city?”

My mom kept mum. “She should have informed me. I work so hard, day and night to make her comfortable. I have to prepare for an important meeting tomorrow. Now look what she’s doing to me”

“We’ll find her. Please relax.”, my mom was trying hard to control her own.

“She is never going to set foot out of this house again”, he hollered.

I always feared my uncle. He was the kind of guy who believed that discipline and sincerity always came by the cane. The tension in my mother’s face was readable. She looked unemotional only because of standing near my uncle. I stood in the living room looking at the telephone at my uncle’s desk. I loved the ‘tring’ sound that flew through its holes. I frequently meddled with it until an irate gesture from uncle killed my interest in the lovely black thing. But today I did not touch it. Uncle was already angry.

“Where are Mina and the kids?” my mom asked looking around.

“Mina is at a relative’s function along with the kids. I had to stay back as I needed to be with Ma. Can’t take her along… some customs. Before I left for work, I told Ma that I will be coming a little late since I had to make my presence felt in that function. So I went there and came home immediately afterwards. She was not here at that time. The door was locked and I thought that she was in the temple. Then I got busy with my preparation that until the flower-lady called in, I did not realize that she wasn’t back”, he said.

“What about Mrs. Sitamma….” mom spoke after sometime, “….Ma speaks to her almost everyday…” she waited, “…. let me talk to her”

I walked around the house which was almost six months since I had last been. The food was left open, papers were strewn on the table, and the small red light on the radio was blinking. I entered a room which was dimly lit and surveyed it. A bitter smell engulfed it. To one corner of the room lay few unused caskets, ruptured rubber mats held together by cobwebs, brass utensils eroding black at its cup but glistening at the edges and other retired stationery from the kitchen. The rest of the room was filled with daily newspapers and magazines which I presumed to be a collection from my uncle’s younger days - termites were having a feast. Dust and Dirt had stormed the room to the max. On the top of the pile lay a wooden frame, glass pieces strewn around them. I picked it up and saw my grandmother. She looked very young with neatly plaited hair, strong vermillion mark on the forehead and jewels around her neck which had obviously lost its shine in the dark interiors of this room. She was serenely smiling upon me. Grandfather looked upon me from the living room. I placed the photograph back atop the junk and left the room.

“Sitamma seems to have spoken to Ma yesterday.” I heard mom speaking with caution, “Uh…. Did Ma talk to you about anything of late?”

My uncle blinked at my mom. It had been days since he had seen his mother smiling. In fact it had been ages since he had had one good conversation with her. Mom was trying to find the suitable words “…Sitamma told that Ma was unlike her of late. Talking about stuff like self-respect, freedom quite excessively...”

“What?”

“…and I’m not sure if she had joked, but she said: ‘Ma was showing signs of being a rebel’”

That was enough for my uncle who banked on the word ‘prestige’ more than he used his share of oxygen. He put his hands on his head and sat on the couch. Mom left her head fall back. It was the phone bell that broke the silence. My uncle answered it. Every second of the conversation only indicated frown in his facial muscles.

“Lila”, he told my mother after placing the receiver on the hold “Mr. Saran seems to have seen Ma walking in the vegetable market around 5’ o clock…”

“What was she doing in the vegetable market in the evening hours?” she asked surprised.

“…. and he saw her get into an auto with the stock”

“Alone?”

“Yes…” he hesitated, “…and she was well dressed…. with jewelry”

My mother looked at my uncle with shock. Tears were finding its way. Obviously colors and jewelry on a widow could never match except for taboo occasions. Thousand thoughts were apparently running through her mind. It never occurred to me at that time as to why grandma’s ‘good dressing’ caused so much of concern. I had seen my mother daily, arranging the fleets of her sari for hours trying to look graceful. ‘Did mother suspect of that dress to be hers’, I thought.

However now I can read what went through my mom’s mind: ‘Her mother…a widow…dressed in jewelry?’ or ‘She wants to break the clichés of a traditional woman and bring disgrace to the family?’ or above all ‘How dare she tries to be something that I do not have the guts to be?’

My uncle had fallen very silent. He was fighting hard to control his temper which was boiling underneath. Any outburst could have caused the china lamp on the tea-stand to see the end of its day. He gave vent of his anger through the clenching of teeth for I could very well hear its grunts.

It was my mother who spoke “Do you think we need to lodge a police complaint?”

The FIR was filed in the police station amidst a consoling inspector, a nonchalant constable, an angry uncle and a depressed mother. My mother held my hands tightly. I could feel the warmth of her hold, a long time since I was down with typhoid the previous year. From what I gather now, there was no mention of my grandma’s audacious clothes mentioned in the FIR. The suspect they put in there was the auto-driver.

We drove back in my uncle’s Fiat towards the house, my mother trying to control her tears, “What has she done? She doesn’t know the world…” she wailed, “it’s not the way she likes… with jewelry…Oh! My God!” My uncle ranted, “I’m going to strangle her for what she is doing”

I sat behind them having the whole backseat for myself. I lay on my back with legs resting on the window, stretched outside. I saw the dark blackish clouds that dispersed the moonlight through out the sky. I could feel the slight drizzle of the rain that occasionally fell on my forehead through the open window. Every drop to my forehead comforted me with some chillness against the anxiety that prevailed around.

We reached the house and saw the lights outside shining brightly. My mom sprung out of the car towards the house and knocked on the doors anxiously. My uncle followed her with an expectant face. Aunt Mina opened the doors.

“Mina? You are here so early?” my uncle inquired from behind.

“The kids weren’t enjoying much. So I had to excuse myself for them” replied Aunt Mina. But she was excited, “You need to know something, Suma is now a teacher”

“Teacher?” my uncle expressed shock. “...that Good-for-nothing?”

“Yes. Looks like your mother finally did succeed in helping her.”, she sighed.

“Ma’s missing, Vinu”, Mom was quick to cut in.

Aunt mina blinked with shock, “What?”

“Lila, I have to tell you something.” My uncle was addressing my mother, “Suma was the reason why Ma and I were starting to have problems in the first place.”

“What’s the story here?” my mother was getting impatient.

“Ma was the closest thing that Suma could get when she worked here. Ma was the reason that Suma survived with the kind of attitude she had. I couldn’t tolerate her anymore, and one day I asked her get out. She refused the money I gave her out of sympathy and took all that little talking that survived between Ma and me. That arrogant filth! I don’t understand what Ma sees out of that servant creature”

“She doesn’t work here anymore. So what’s the problem?”

My uncle pondered over the matter for a second. Then he spoke, “I think that could just be the problem”, he said.

For the first time since that evening, my uncle looked at me. “Are you hungry?” he asked. I nodded my head. “Aunt Mina will take care of you”, he said. My mom and my uncle got inside the car and drove through the gothic road into the darkness as the clouds brought in gushes of rain putting smiles onto the lips of the meteorologists.

The rabbit in my watch glowed 12:34. The lights were switched off as I got up from the couple hours of sleep. My sleeping cousins were missing. I fumbled across the room to open the door. I heard distinct sounds that were inaudible due to the fan revving above. I pulled the door open slightly and saw a woman sitting on a teakwood chair and my cousins cuddled onto their mother. My uncle was pacing the floor and my mom slouched on one corner of the room tears trickling down her eyes.

I opened the door and walked towards the puny lady with the solemn face, a dim sari covering her head and stood near her. I ran my fingers through the wrinkles in her cheeks and asked, “Grandma, where were you?”

She took me in her arms and seated me on her lap. She held me close to her chest and kissed my cheeks. I could feel the wetness of her cheeks. She kissed me a few more times and it was at that time I realized the warmth of a person whom I had not met during the past six months, and whom I never remembered having existed the past six years.

My mother came and dragged me from my grandma towards herself. I obliged. My uncle turned to his mother and asked, “So, what have you decided, Ma?”

“I just wanted my life”, she said with a frail voice. It gave me a feeling that she had never spoken much.

My uncle’s eyes looked angry with resentment. He gave a tired sigh and walked towards my grandma. “In that case… it’s the choice between your life and your home.”

There was a gloomy ambience that existed in the house for the next few days which was eventually forgotten and everything came back to normal. My uncle started smiling again in business parties, my mother introduced herself to others as before and my cousins stopped asking about Grandma in the due course of time. She did not have a big society and so it wasn’t long before those only ones forgot about her. It never occurred to me as to what had happened to that person who had passed life into the generation of mine and next. I started realizing the weird absence of my grandma only as I grew up and my subconscious memories started moving towards the conscious ones.

This isn’t about how I lost my grandma; rather this is about how she came back to my life - little by little, step by step, it was almost a decade before I could completely bring her back to us. It was a night in August, ten years ago. As my age was ticking towards twenty, the clock was ticking seven forty-five. My heart was beating pulses faster than usual and I lay on my bed fantasizing the clouds above. I hadn’t given him a reply but I was very sure that when I met him tomorrow, I was going to hug and kiss him with a force that I felt only in my dreams. The lights were switched off and the breezy night was pumping the excitement into my mind. I lay dreaming about the upcoming happenings, running a skit in my mind as to how romantic the first step of this relationship can be made. The lights went on and I saw my father calmly looking at me. “We need to talk”, he said.

It was an unusual experience, walking beside my father at such an early hour of the night. Nothing much had changed for the past fifteen years, neither me catching those occasional glimpses of him nor him wishing me goodnight only after I slept. It was almost a year since he, mom and I had gone on a trip to Shimla which was cancelled half-way due to his business commitments. Walking beside a father and dreaming of a boyfriend made me realize how strange a father-daughter relationship had gone.

I entered the room and saw my mother slouched on the bed with a sober face and cheeks shining with wetness, the first instance of witnessing it totally escaping my mind. I thought about tomorrow and my heart started beating more. The night suddenly seemed to turn from romance to mystery. The tube lights were put out and there was only a chandelier that glowed brightly. She looked at me and wiped her eyes with the ends of her sari.

My father and I sat at the foot of my bed, his grip tightening over me. I kept looking at my father’s lips for any words that would give a sign of what grave drama was to take place tonight. He turned towards me, eyes facing downwards and heaved a sigh.

“Your mother and I have decided to separate…” he said, “…we are filing for divorce”

I looked at my mother and then to my father. ‘When I was trying to build a future I had suddenly found a hole in the past. Did I dream for the hugs and kisses at the wrong place?’ It took me a few seconds to gather my senses and understand the weight of that sentence. My father was not looking at me.

I settled for a simple question. “Why?”

He shook his head. “Things don’t jell”

“What about all these years?”

“They don’t now.” he said.

I did not know what to talk. I thought about my friends but we never thought about divorce except in the movies. I looked at mom. I wanted to ask her something but the words escaped my mind.

“What can I do to make you change your decision?” I asked timidly.

He moved closer to me and touched my head with his palms. ‘Answer me, don’t cajole me’, I thought to myself. “What can I do?” I asked him again.

“Sweety, there is nothing you can do. We have reached a decision.”

“YOU have reached a decision!” I countered, confident that a sobbing lady was not the sign of an approver.

“Look baby….”

“Stop calling me like that!” my voice raised.

“You cannot do anything, its not working”

“Why?”

“I am in love with another woman…” he blurted out.

It paralyzed me. He was dumping my mom for another woman? “You are not doing this”, I tried a tone of authority.

“Nothing can be done”, he said with a look that he named ‘repentance’.

“You cannot do this.”

“She’s pregnant”, he said.

This is where I reached the full stop. There was no more writing necessary, no more questions, no more justifications and no more Dad. The line of their marriage was over and I could feel it. I could not stand him anymore in this house or ever, anywhere, neither could have mom. I controlled my disgust else I would have gladly signed his divorce papers. I composed myself for one last question. “How long?” I asked.

“Quite sometime”

“HOW LONG?”

“Three years.”

Three years! All I could picture was my mother and father at Shimla standing near each other, him holding her tightly around his arms as I clicked the picture. That hung right above my reading table. But it had been three years while those hands were actually yearning for another woman. I went and sat near my mother and hugged her quietly. My father started speaking again but all I could hear was the deprivation and sobbing of my mom resonating my ears.

My Post Graduation was never planned. I, a simple parent’s child confined within the boundaries of girlish fun and family bond realized that I was an invalid until I found something for myself – a life. My contemplation did not take too much to sense that ‘career’ was the obvious choice. It’s not fair to concede that the ‘career-driven’ characteristic belongs only to men; I wanted a fair share myself. It is hateful to consider this a man’s world because a woman lives here too. But I knew that my trysts with the society would be tasteless from which I could never run away. In fact there wasn’t a choice. So I decided to play hardball, I became a journalist.

There were times when I used to sit staring at the reddish skies in the long drawn evenings during my parents divorce as both got ready to move separate ways. During those days I thought about my mother getting ready to leave someone she had believed to be there for the rest of her life and then, I thought about grandma. When I think about why she left the house only one single line flashes in my mind, the line I remember of my grandma, I want my life. I wondered if that was too much to ask.

When I completed my journalism, I had one thing in mind: to find out what had happened to my grandma. I spent all my time trying to visit people in search of information that could lead me to her. Not one person in my family spoke about her; they never knew where she was and often supposed that she was dead. I did not know whom to turn to. The younger generation did not know her, the elder generation did not speak about her, and the older generation did not remember her. From all I could gather, she lived in vicinity for another six months since she left the house after which nobody knew what happened.

I was not able to meet my grandma since. I was unable to find out where she lived or with whom she lived. Despite the pursuits for my grandma I never intended to find whether she lived a life of satisfaction or repentance. All I wanted to remember of my grandma was a lady who was strong enough to break through conventions in search for her freedom. However I often wished that somehow I could find her and take pride in accepting what she had wanted: her life.

It was on the day when my mother and I moved out of the place that we called home and saw my father waving to us standing with another woman near the gate did I realize the image that would haunt me for the rest of my life. I did not wave him back.

One day I entered my uncle’s store room and picked the photograph of my grandma. I cleaned it from the dust and dirt that had piled on it and hung it right in front of the entrance to my living room. My uncle was furious when he saw that, more since it gleamed at a place where everybody noticed. He ordered me to put it away but I stood ground. Every time my uncle brings someone to my home, I hear them enquiring about the picture that looks below smiling at them. Whenever I enter the house I smile at my grandma and she chuckles back to me. In due course of time, it became a well-known fact that there is a lady in this family who mothered two children leading them to their lives until one day she paraded out in search of her own.

Now she lives here with us.

Editor, The New Times

Dated: 8^th March, 2008.

by Tipu U V.

Writing fiction after a break of more than a year would never be easy. Choosing it from three topics along with the names of the two judges revealed, one hanging right in front of you with its two intimidating hands ticking off every second would be the most difficult challenge. Moreover setting up a verbal boundary of 250 thereby curbing the realms of imagination would be Mission Impossible. With so many obstacles it needs a genuine writer to pull off a winner. But humans are cunning and I qualify for that. A direct rip of an original with a few taps from his drum would make the music his creation. When posed with the task of writing fiction in an hour I chose the original and gave a few round-offs to the facts. So friends of my unknown world, I present you my work of fiction. And friends who know me, I plead your forgiveness.

This short story was written in a competition that was held at MCity, Infosys in April 2007.


The Stranger

For him.

Little did he know about the stranger who would be calling him within the next 15 minutes. He sat unblinking on the couch staring at his home phone with an heart pounding more than 72 times a minute and thoughts racing from ‘Steven Spielberg’ to a ‘Porsche’.

Twenty-two years of his life he had scampered from cinema halls to DVD complexes plunging to watch the movies he had yearned for. He remembered every instance of his participation in Ad-Zaps, Skits, Cultural events which shot his creative nerves to exciting levels. A science student by education, an engineer by profession, he had forever wondered how his passion was going to define the future. “Love for Cinema” was what he had sustained and realized only within himself. Long Shot – he saw his retiring father smiling with tears at his engineering degree.

The Phone Rang.

He got up from the couch – with two steps of confidence, a clear throat and a hand of nonchalance as he picked up the phone.

“Hello”, he said.

“Am I speaking to Mr.Sridhar?” asked the stranger.

“Yes, Sridhar here”, he replied.

“Hi Sridhar, This is Robert, from the Techno Software Park. Our company has been very much impressed by your resume. Your interview with our Human Relations Team showed good skills of your communication. Moreover your acceptance to relocate and work 24 X 7 in this highly demanding software world has instilled greater confidence in you. You have been appointed and are requested to join our company the coming Monday. So see you on Monday and Wish you the very best for the future.”

“Thanks a lot, Sir”, he said and placed the receiver down.

No emotions crossed his body as he slowly sat down on the couch. ‘Steven Spielberg’ waving his hands in farewell flashed across his eyes and tears trickled down them. He thought about his parents. The Job would make them happy. He would be able to make merry and party more with his friends. The whole world would start seeming to get so close but he knew – he was always going to be a stranger to himself.

The Taste of Ignorance

A sound broke the silence of the neighbourhood. Arav fumbled with a rectangular gadget. A press on the button to its left, the noise stopped. Precisely after nine minutes the noise called in again, but this time Arav was on his feet.

He had woken up.

It had been a month long of arduous advice by his parents. "Do something, kid", his father used to cringe. "Why don't you take a look in the mirror?"

"It’s not about looks", his mother reflected. "Its about health!!"

"I am trying!” was his usual involuntarised reply.

Arav, still in his boyhood always dreamt to put his desires into actions but procrastination as always had been a thief of his time. But today was not going to be 'those' days. He was hell-bent to put things to work.

‘A Perfect day for Showtime.’ he whiffed the beautiful morning's air. It was not easy to wake up in the early hours of today's morning when sleep came more with an emotional ease, but Arav’s nonchalance was simply imperturbable. After all today was his day. He had gone to sleep with repeated 'wake up at 6' chants to ensure it was executed to perfection. This was a hypothetical psychology of motivation that he believed, things work when yearned repeatedly. 'Who cares about psychology', Arav thought. He had woke up, and that's what mattered.

His head held high, he walked to brush his teeth. A small glance from his parents, Arav understood that Pop was surprised, his Mom satisfied. The flow continued until he was dressed up in trax and t-shirt with a newly bought Reebok shoes especially for today's morning.

"Coffee!" he called to his Mom. She came with a glass of Milk.

"I hate Milk", he winced looking into the glass.

"You must have bought powder yesterday?” his Mom questioned.

Arav looked on with a feeling of guilt.

“Drink!” the expression sterned on his Mom’s face.

He gulped the milk with hardened eyes and thumped the glass on the table. It was still half-full.

“What’s with the other half?” his Mom questioned.

“I don’t like it!” he refused flatly.

“You can’t go with an empty stomach!” she warned.

“I know to take care of myself!” he antagonized and munched into him chips and biscuits from the kitchen.

She stared at him with angry eyes. The house-keeper was ordered to take the rest of the milk to the backyard.

His father peeked out of his Newspaper with a sarcastic smile, but Arav put it away.

He was not willing to look bowed down. It was an eerie atmosphere of unwarranted heroism.

And all for a day's Morning walk!

*****************

He walked through the gates - mobile in his hand and an 'Adidas' cap fitted perfectly on his head. "Walk comes so easily in the mornings", he said to himself. He smiled with inner triumph at his mother who closed the gates behind him. His slow walk steadied at the thought of Kkrish who had promised to accompany him, waiting at the stadium. He took the foggy road to reach the stadium. The place had a serene ambience with trees adorned on either side of the walk-path. He looked at people who paced through the walk-path with fiery thrust. They seemed so enthusiastic about a walk which they had been doing their entire lives. But now with his obese body, it seemed all the more essential to him.

He surveyed the area for his friend, but there was no sign of Kkrish. He sat on a bench moist with dew, the chillness of which put in a new energy into him. With Kkrish still not making it, he stood and decided to start on his own. He put his foot into the mechanical motion along his unknown colleagues. A few minutes later his body seemed to respond. He was feeling heavy. Trinkets of sweat emerged from his forehead and made its way to the neck. Calories started to burn, the fresh air bared its heat. He started feeling the stickiness of his shirt. But Arav had decided. With desire to reduce fuelling his actions, at the forte of determination he walked. Kkrish seemed to be the last thing in his mind.

For 10 minutes, Arav had walked in perfect circles. When he stopped he could feel his consciousness drifting into the continuum. He panted, and sat down on a Stonehenge. Legs were starting to ache. The weight of his body seemed to find rest on his poor two pillars of balance. His inner organs cluttered into a state of discomposure. His head hung down into tiredness. As he glanced into the walk-path the 'walkers' poked a feeling of defeat into him. He did not want to give up easily. His favourite theory of psychology hit him again.

"Walk", he said and stood up.

"Walk", he said and paced.

"Walk....Walk....Walk....", it seemed to work...he was back into action.

The first lap seemed the easy way. He strode it with his 40 inch hip swaying gracefully to the viewer behind. The Walk was almost getting into the groove of expertise when a glint from the sun created a flurry in his eyes and he went blacked-out for a couple of seconds.

"First-Timer", he consoled himself.

A deep sensation of nausea hurt his wind-pipe. He choked for a second and water moistened his eyeball. He considered.

"Walk...Walk...Walk...” he chanted.

But things seemed not to improve.

"What’s happening?!” frustration overwhelmed, as he saw a 100 kg man striding past him with zeal.

Suddenly 'Morning walk' seemed to be the most demanding job in the world. He began to feel the pain, from his shoulders to his calf. The developments confused him. Eyes were getting drowsy. The mind was getting topsy-turvy. He found it hard to complete the lap. However, he continued.

Within a hundred yards he stopped, mouth twitched and he vomited. He flipped onto the sideway and hit on a stone. The pain seared to his eyes. A hassled rainbow faded as he closed his eyes.

*****************

"Ouch!” Arav yelled at the top of his voice in the soft couch he was laid on.

"Don't worry, it’s just a swollen Bone", consoled his Mom

"Not the Bone", he heaved a heavy breath "My tummy's hurting like hell"

"Probably you over-exerted!” said Kkrish standing nearby.

'Is 10 minutes an exertion?!!’ Arav reflected.

"Hmmm….", he said with weak anger "You people forced me for walks and now, it’s me with all the agony!"

"Walks don’t cause stomach aches, son", chipped in his father. Arav stared weakly.

“Didn’t listen to Mom... Went with an empty stomach…” he continued

“I didn’t”, justified Arav.

“Must have had the milk fully”

“I did have some chips instead”

“Chips!?...You’ve got a wonderful sense of Diet control!!” his voice toiled in sarcasm.

"He's already hurt. Is this the time for arguments?” Mom cut in the rebuke.

"Actually...” Pop hesitated.

"The sun might have caused him!"

"It could not have hurt an ant!!”

She looked at him undecided what to speak.

“It’ll be ‘Food on Time-Table’ hereafter”, he said glancing at Arav.

"Fine!” she conceded, “Let him rest. I've given him a pain-killer. We'll go check up with the doctor later this evening”

His father nodded stoically.

"And one more thing...” she added "Don’t force him on walks again!!".

His father looked on, bowled over.

*****************

Arav lay on the couch, hand over his tummy. The pain was slowly subsiding. The drowsiness was taking over. A hazy draft of today having him sleeping cozily on the bed and waking at the late hours of the fore-noon with breakfast ready on the table swept his thoughts.

‘Morning walks are healthy?’ he asked himself.

“Not for me!!” he decided.

The untouched taste of ‘eggs and soup’ vibrating his taste buds watered his eyes.

“I'd rather burst like a balloon than stepping foot into the act of exercise again!” he cursed with anguish. He stared at the ceiling for sometime, and then shrugged.

“Sleep....Sleep....Sleep”, he repeated as he drifted into peace.

As he passed into relief a cat in his backyard lay sprawled to the ground writhing its body in agony. It wabbled its tongue in a sensation of Nausea and was fighting hard to overcome the seizure. The morning breakfast had caused it some adverse effects. The creature jerked with uneasiness. As it turned its torso the paws struck on its feeding bowl spilling white traces of Milk!


- TIPU U V

'JUST' A WALK

I walked a Lonely road, or was it a Road that was walked by a lonely Me.....two sides of a coin i guess. But then i was looking onto only one side, ignorant of the other. Not long away, the presence of another side was intimated to me by a total stanger with whom i had this apprehensive-encounter of meeting once but comes repercussing to my mind for all times to come.

So as a lonely Me walked through the street also lonely as I, a distant energy hit on me. I wasn't lonely afterall(neither was the street) and my eyes prodded to focus on a relatively (compared to me) small brute transfixed with his glazzies(eyes) on me. First shot, ran through my nerves clanging the alarm tone in my heart. Next 2 seconds, the apprehensiveness created a sort of paralysis and i stood like a statue. As the shock died down and a few milliseconds of involuntarily searching my built-in encyclopedia i came to know that the person staring so hard at me was a Dog!.....Of Course, what else could live by the roadside having four legs, with a long pointed head, sharp teeth and most distinctively a curved tail!. But then he seemed to look virtually gigantic. (I wonder how just a distinctive stare could kindle so many emotions!!)

So, is this guy gonna attack me?....He was staring at me so hard, it just paralysed me as if caught in a spider's web. Racking my mind, time running out(i was so goddamn scared) i had to decide...Run! or Retaliate!. Run would have been the move, but then luckily my receptors being quite strong brought in loads of 'Never run in front of a Dog!' stuff. So i did not run, but Stood, rooted.

What was this guy upto?...I went searching for, When i had caused harm to such a fellow-ecological friend. I found None. The heavy adrenaline that ran through that column subsided..I was relieved. This wasn't about Revenge. However the Coup was still on and i had to find the problem. Funny! that at times problems seem more important than solutions. But there was my head, suddenly more hot than the sun itself. What should i do now?... All my thoughts were running helter-skelter except one perceivable enough to understand, Escape!. But how?
Retaliate!...someone was telling from inside my ears. Bend down to pick a stone?....I didn't. Not that i was a fan of the Mahatma, (I would have made HITLER sound kind instance) i didn't know how this psycho would react to such an overwhelm of emotion. So i took the safer side...I stood still, rooted.

Desperation was at its forte...'React you monster!' i shouted in the vaacum within me. I rationalised and decided to act, I wanted to take the upper-edge, I wanted to intimidate. So there came my first act of bravery. I closened my brows faking angry eyes and looked directly into the eyes of my adversary. Futile!!!. A grumpy sound that followed vibrated my eardrum and shook the nuts out of me. My faithful encyclopedia immediately decoded this to be the 'bark' with a detailed explanation of it symbolising Anger!. However there was my proud self still standing like Alexander, rooted.

'Help Me', I thought. 'Damn', I said....A couple of calm moments. 'Face it', I decided. Then came the history of my redemption, I took the first step....with my right leg. A pretty short one i guess, about half a foot in distance.

No reaction from my opponent!.

Then came the second step, my left seemed to co-ordinate. Good!

Still No reaction!. I refused to look.

Now the right came more easily. The left followed, then the right and left alternatively.

Within 10 seconds i reached the adjoining street, bustling with activity a long way from my resister. I saw him turn back, walk and take a place at the mound of sand that lay alongside the pavement. I walked my road - embarassed, shaken and relived.

'What a damned escape!', I thought. I was ashamed of having been beaten by a passive intimidator. "Sixth Sense!!", I confounded myself, "No idea where that useless fellow of mine had gone. I was there competing with a dog with no use of my most valuble sense standing undecided what to do. The final way for my escape being a simple straight-forward Walk!. I smirked, irritated by my incompetence.

I took the stairs that led me to my destination. I pulled open the gates and entered the safe boundaries of my house. As i opened the door, my sister came running towards me.

"Did you see?", she asked. I made a questioning look.

"The dog!..", she said. "...down the road. Its gone berserk. Bit two men from the corporation who tried to capture it and even a kid who tried to run away from it."

"Oh!.. ", I reflected "...I avoided it!"

"How?", she asked with curious eyes.

I paused. A smile evaporated my lips.

"Not bothered", I guessed.